Just No

I’m done dating.

I went on a date Friday night. I was waiting for him outside, watching the sun set over the ocean, and then he walked up. Smoking.

I had a couple beers with him, but the whole time I was sitting across from him, promising myself I’d give up online dating forever. Pictures can never tell you if there’s going to be chemistry. And I just…felt done.

The dude he asked me if I were going to invite him over for a drink. As if.

And…I feel bad about this…but I just kind of never texted him back from there. He bought me dinner and drinks…and then I didn’t answer his follow-up text.

I just couldn’t figure out how to tell him I didn’t want to go out and again, and then all this time passed and I just…didn’t text back.

Because boat guy texted me after we went out and asked if I wanted to go out again. I told him I wasn’t interested romantically. And he went off. Not on me per se. Just in general. Was he too fat, too bald, why do girl keep saying this to him, he could never impress a girl more than he did on our first date, fuck dating, he’ll never bother me again. Goodbye. And when I texted him the peace emoji, he relied “who’s this?”I felt sad for him. But I can’t date someone out of pity, and I’m not interested in trying to force chemistry.

So. Maybe I’m a little gun shy. Not everyone can handle honesty.

Also, Jhole’s ex has been messaging me. Apparently he cheated on her. We’re all super surprised. Especially since we already knew he had a secret online dating account the whole time they were dating and that he’s not capable of being faithful. I mean really. I  thank God every day that things didn’t work out with him.

So. This week I realized I don’t need to focus on dating. I need to focus on finding a new place to live and a job I love. I decided maybe to be done with dating for a while.

And that’s where I am.

Except this girl on Instagram messaged me and said her husband’s best friend happened to see me on her Insta feed and asked who I was and they stalked my insta and he’s interested in me. His account is private, so I requested to follow. Couldn’t really tell if he was cute or nah.

The funny thing about this is that I know her because she’s part of surfer boy’s circle. I met her at a party he took me to. Right before he asked me to be his girlfriend and then basically went MIA.

Also they have the same name. Something may or may not come of this, but it’s interesting.

Except. I’m not dating.