In the Game

I don’t know…somewhere along the way, I realized I’m in the game. I’m dating. Somewhere I also realized that just because I’m not seriously dating (read: kissing, etc) anyone doesn’t mean there aren’t plenty of guys around. Because the truth is…there are tons of guys. Some of them are from online, which I feel like doesn’t really count, but that’s just me putting my judgement on it. The truth is, there are guys everywhere. My friends joke that they need a spreadsheet to keep up with it all. And…as I’m learning in life, when you change your perspective on things…things change.

I went on a date last Friday night with this tall, handsome lawyer guy. We stayed at dinner for three hours just laughing. Lingered saying goodbye. He kissed my cheek, asked me what my plans were for the rest of the weekend…which turned out to be insignificant (I feel like there’s a better word there for it but I can’t think of it right now) because I never heard from him after that. Okay.

Monday I was hanging out with my niece and told her I wanted to meet a guy on the beach and then, when he asked to see me again, tell him he’d see me around. Which is exactly what happened the very next day. A guy started talking to me. He asked my name, told me his, and then said, “maybe I’ll see you around,” and I said, “I’m around.” So it was cool to see a dream come true, even if it never goes anywhere…I haven’t seen him since.

Then a guy from online messaged me. He’s a surfer from north county but now lives on a ranch in Arizona. The idea of a surfer/cowboy intrigues me…however, he’s in Arizona so there’s really not much going on there.

There’s another surfer boy from north county that reminds me of ex Surfer Boy. Cuter, though, and hopefully not as…prone to drama or lies or whatever the hell it was that happened with Surfer Boy (BTW, I haven’t heard from him in a month). He excites me. Hoping to sit on the beach and watch the sunset with him sometime soon.

Lastly, there’s this guy that has been asking me out for 2 years. I’ve always shut him down, and he always pops back up. Anyway, he popped back up and said, “i wish you’d let me take you out.” I replied, “plan something fun and I’ll go.” So today, we’re going whale watching on his boat.

I haven’t seen or heard from Dog Park Boy since last week. My sister says he probably felt blown off. I’m debating inviting him to my superbowl party. We’ll see.

I’m in the dating game. I’ve never really done this before. It’s very fun and exciting. But the very best part of all is that whether or not I meet The One isn’t my motivation, and it certainly isn’t the reason for the way I feel. Because now? I am in love with my life. And that is the greatest love of all.